Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Do you ever feel...


Just a little burned out.....Or wonder.....Where you are suppose to be....what your suppose to be doing?  Lately I will have to admit I have been struggeling with wondering and seeking what God wants for my life and where he wants me to be......I guess you could say I have hit a little burn out with work and home and not getting that break once in a while to refresh.  Terry and I have been married for almost 16 years now..and with so many great memories and building our family.  But, we also have never taken time for just us. Partly because we never have had anyone to help with our kids and stay with them. We have no grandparents around which make any kind of date night or get away impossible sometimes!  We have recently talked about taking a trip together, and we both desire to do that so much, but honestly sad to say Grace would not know her grandparents if they did come and stay...I think she has just seen them maybe twice,...so for now...once again, we will have to wait! Seems that is the theme of our lives the last few years. Just hang on and wait...

Really over the past year in all the business of life, I have managed to neglect myself and I have found myself just taking care of everyone els, and not taking anytime out for myself.  I think this is the story for many moms and wives! It gets easy to get caught up in. I know I seem to be good at it. Im either taking care of kids or working...trying to run my business.... ..only to wake up and do the same thing again the next day..I love my family more than anything in the world, I have and will do anything for them all....so I am not complaining about my family, but somewhere in there, I have realized more than ever that I need to take time for myself! If we neglect ourselves then we are seriously not good to anyone. So after a huge burn out hit me, and I had a mini melt down..... I planned a day for myself!  Saturday, I left the house at 8am and did not return until 9pm.  It was a great day....I took a fun photography class, went shopping for the afternoon, then to a chocolate and candle party at night that a friend was having. Im telling you just that little bit of getting away was so refreshing for me. I thought ..wow why do I not take time for myself more often.  I have a husband who definetly encourages me to go take a break when i need one.  As Im talking to my husband about my feelings and struggles, I come to find he has been having some of the same similar feelings too, of course in a different way though. He is also seeking where God wants him, or what he is suppose to be doing in life.  We both know how important good friends are as well, and we are really needing that support!  We don't know what God is doing. But the one thing I know for sure is that God is in control, God will guide us, and God will grow us during this time of wonder, and seeking....He is forever and that never changes and is always constant!

4 comments:

Melissa said...

Congrats on taking a break! I read What Every Mom Needs a couple years ago and it revolutionized how I take care of myself as a mom and wife.
As for you and Terry, I vote for you to take a trip to the east coast :) You can spend a couple days here and when Gracie is used to us, you can leave her and head up to New England for some R&R and pick her up on your way back. :) Oh, and I'm serious.

Rachel said...

There are just always things that need doing, aren't there? You're right - it is very hard to just stop and breathe, but so important to do that if only to stay sane! So glad you had that day away! I hope you are able to find a way to take that trip :)

Kim said...

Good for you Tina!! I relate to many things you said and sometimes we mommys just need a little break!! My parents live next door and we still haven't had the chance to get out yet!! Sometimes a little refresher is what you need!

Rhea Anne said...

Miss you. I do understand your feelings. I haven't been on here in forever but do think of you often. I pray you are doing well. Gracie and the kids are getting big. Many blessings and praying for you and for God to speak to your heart. Rhea Anne