Little late posting this, but this was last weekend...before our son moved out, we decided to go out and explore! Perfect weather and some perfect family bonding time. I am very happy for him and excited for his future!! God has really blessed him so much this past year!! Big adjustments for our family
Beautiful view and some hiking was a perfect day. So peaceful and calming..except for the twisting turvey roads that made us girls a little queasy, lol
We drove through many little caves like this, it was so cool!
Lately we have been so busy that I have not allowed the reality that my son is going to be leaving the home for college hit me too much. If it entered my mind I quickly made it go away with denial. But the other night as I was locking up the house I passed by his room and being strong no longer existed for me. I just stood there and looked in his room and the next thing I know I was sobbing. I realized that his room is going to be empty, the house will be more quiet, the chip bags will last longer :-), my lunch times with him every day are no longer, and so many other things I will miss about him being here daily!! I do not like this season in life. I want to go back. I want to hold on longer. But guess what? Time keeps going. He is ready to be on his own weather I am ready or not it is happening. I am proud of him and all he has and is becoming, but as his mom, I just am not ready for this stage of life at all. On a positive note, he will only be an hour away so we can go see him pretty easily. He will be going to school in the same city my husband works in and for that I am very thankful!!! But this new stage is a huge transition for us all. As much as I do not like this, and as much wrestling with feelings that I experience I also feel God saying "it's ok, this may not be easy and it may hurt to let go, but I will watch over him, trust me and it will all be ok".
Happy Birthday to our little Grace!! Thank you Lord God for blessing us with such a special, sweet, humorous, intelligent, spunky, tender hearted, little angel!!! Please help me Lord to be all I can be to be the very best mother and example for my children. I can not express in enough words how special all my kids are to me. Yesterday Grace turned 7. It seems like yesterday she was just 2. I know I probably say this a lot and by now if you read my blog, you will see I don't do well with changes and kids growing up so fast. I always want to slow down time.
Taking a cheap plastic, putting dish soap on it with water made a huge hit for the kids to slide down on our hill. What a cool thing to do to create a ton of fun for these little ones!
Big sisters come in handy when you need to add some fun color to your hair! Big sisters ROCK!!
I love love love summer time and the heat!! Flowers are in bloom, everything is green (at least where we live because of constant rain) and what a beautiful place to visit in our area is the water falls. We took my in laws up and snapped a few pictures. I would have to say though that my highlight was by far teaching my father in law how to take selfies with a camera I borrowed to him to take on there two week vacation!!!
Here is the selfy moment !! He got pretty good too I will have to admit
sisters forever and cute as can be!!!
Grandparents that ROCK!! We love you Bill and Jan!! xoxo
Nothing prettier to me than seeing flowers bloom in the spring and my beautiful princess glowing in the sun light. It has been raining for weeks and days here, so as soon as the sun came out today we had to get out and soak in it. As spring is here and summer around the corner, I am hoping that this summer is filled with new adventures and making special memories!!
A few pictures I took while we were outside today. I love how her skirt matches the flowers
I wake this morning with streaming tears and a pit in my stomach. I miss you Every Day! They say "time heals". Many times my heart still aches, but I'm thankful for the strength that God has given us all! Today may mark the day we lost you. But Everyday I Cherish and hold dear all the wonderful family memories you gave us. Thank you for always loving me UNCONDIONALLY. I love you dad
Seems this past 12 days has been one that has been a total whirlwind for us. First just getting through all the prep and work for graduation party, which we did with great success!! Then after the party we had one day to clean up, pack and hit the road to be heading down the road on a long trip to get my son the best care for yet another heart surgery. We knew this time we were taking him to a better place, one of the very best. The day leading up to was a little nerve racking. Always hearing risks with any surgery can freak a person out a little, But we just had to give it to God and trust in his safety and careful watch over our son. The first time he had catheter ablation it was 7 hours in the O.R. Now that puts a mom on the edge of her seat. But then to hear it did not go as the Dr hoped was a big disappointment. This time at the Mayo in Rochester Mn. the Dr took a little over 2 hours and it was a huge SUCCESS!! They had Bailey asleep the entire time unlike here locally, they had him in and out for the process which was grooling especially when putting catheters through the neck and groin. All around this time was an absolute better experience for him. He woke up and it was all done, and done correctly!! Today a week out Bailey is doing great. Feeling pretty good and I knew for him to hear good news afterwards that it would greatly impact how well and fast he would recover. If in doubt with anything always always seek another doctors advice. We are so glad we did.
Thank you every one that took time out of your day to pray for our son. We are so thankful at how things turned out for him!!
Unreal to me that my little boy has now graduated from High School. My heart is heavy and I feel like time has gone way to fast! At the same time my heart is heavy, I am overwhelmed with a feeling of pure happiness for him and I am incredibly proud. He has become such a great young man, and truly has a great head on his shoulders. He loves the Lord with all his heart, and I just know he has a great future ahead of him. Bailey has received a full ride scholarship to collage. We are so very excited for him and this great opportunity. Thank you to all of you for traveling to join us in this special day. Here are a few fun photos from this special day.
The proud moment when you walk down the row of people and class mates to grab that diploma, that piece of paper you work towards getting for so many years is now here. Now you cross over into adult hood. Such a proud moment and such a great accomplishment!
Buddies and Best friends forever !!
Proud Daddy Moment!
Bay was shading his little sister from the bright sun shine !! LOL< So cute!!
Even though he is an adult now, I will hang on forever! Forever he is my son!! Forever I am proud of him, and Forever I will love him with all my heart, Forever I am his Mommy!!
I am loving reading the blog posts written by Dave Willis and his wife Ashley. This one seemed appropriate for myself and many of my friends that have children graduating. 5 Things your kids will remember about you You can click the link to see more of their great posts. But I wanted to share this because I think no matter what age your children are at right now, they are always learning from us.
As parents, we tend to stress about things that don’t matter all that much. Our kids probably aren’t going to remember every detail of our home decor, or how perfect our landscaping looked or whether our refrigerator was stocked was name brands or generics. Let’s focus on what really matters. If you want to know what your kids will remember about you, here it is: 5 things your kids will remember about you: 1. The times you made them feel safe (or the times you made them feel unsafe).
There’s a vulnerability and a need for protection in the heart of every child. Your kids will remember those moments you chased the monsters from under their bed or held them after a nightmare, but they’ll also remember the times when your temper became the monster they feared. Our kids are probably going to see us angry sometimes, because that’s part of life, but make it your mission to make your children feel safe and secure at all times when they’re with you. 2. The times you gave them your undivided attention.
Kids measure love primarily by our attentiveness to them. The times you stop what you’re doing to have a tea party or go outside to throw a ball or jump on a trampoline with be memories etched into their minds and hearts forever. Take the time to do the little things with your kids, because in the end, they’ll be the moments that matter most. 3. The way you interacted with your spouse.
Our kids are forming their views of love in large part by watching how we treat our husband or wife. Strive to have the kind of marriage that makes them excited to get married someday. Give them the security that comes from seeing their Mom and Dad in a committed, loving relationship with each other. 4. Your words of affirmation AND your words of criticism.
A child’s heart is like wet cement and the impression made early in life will harden over time. They’ll base their sense of identity, capability and even self-worth largely upon the words you speak to them in those formative years. Part of our job as parents is to correct and discipline, but even in correction, let your words be full of love, encouragement and positive reinforcement. 5. Your family traditions.
Kids love spontaneity, but they also have deep need for predictability. They’ll remember with great fondness the “traditions” you establish whether it’s a weekly family movie (or game) night, a place you regularly travel for family getaways, the way you celebrate birthdays and special events or any other special tradition. Be intentional about creating some traditions that they’ll want to pass onto their own children someday.
Only another month and we will be seeing our First child Graduate from High School. Writing this seriously has me on the edge of tears. I remember like yesterday when he started school when he was younger. I was one of the moms that cried through out the summer with the anticipation of him going to school. I was the mom that was crying in the hall taking him to his first day. Gosh how time has gone by so very very fast!!! This is going to be a hard one for the protective mommy that I am. I have had a lot of different emotions about this. I want to pause time. I want to go back in time, I want to go back in time and take more time. The things I ask myself; have I been a good enough, have I taught him enough about the world, about God, about life. I guess as a mom, I could ask a million questions, but I think the evidence is in what a sweet, caring young man he has become. We have given him all the love in the world and that will go on forever. I will always be his mother!!
I wish I could keep him under my roof just a little longer, but this is where I have to trust in God. that He will always protect him, and lead him. This is where we will see him blossom even more in his life as he pursues his career. He has been a wonderful joy and blessing, he is my hugger, teases me when he can because he knows I fall for anything, He is bigger than his dad and can wrestle him down, he loves and adores his sisters... and also picks on them and annoys them. They both very much look up to him, adore him, and pick on him right back.
My son, I love you and am so very proud of you and what you have become and what you are becoming!! This thing we call life can be an amazing journey. Hang on to God and no matter what he will walk with you and lead you through out all your decisions in life!!
Lately I have been spending about 5-6 hours a day studying for Real Estate. I have not taken much time till now but I have realized recently that when school is done, mommy is going to be working. This will be the first summer I have not had the privilege of being home with my kids. Kinda hit me thinking that I may need to find day care for Grace. That makes me sad. I know many moms have had to do this. But for me I have not had to use day care for my job for any of my kids. I have been very lucky I could take them to work with me the 12 years I had my dance business. Not to mention summers off. Life will definitely be shifting & changing around here and I for one honestly do not know if I am ready for that. I treasure being home for my kids and I know for a fact they love me being here because they tell me often! I know my husband also appreciates me being here and always available. With him working in another city it pretty much all falls on me. But I believe God is also working on a new plan for him as well. Right now I know a lot of work is happening, but with out all the work there can not be the changes that we need to have. I know and feel that right around the corner absolutely everything is going to be falling into place.
I'm excited that I am on track with my on line real estate courses and tests. I am almost done with the on line and will be in class in just 2 more weeks. It is so much harder than I ever imagined it would be. But I pray it is all worth it. I really felt God leading me in this direction when other doors just were not opening. I need to be doing something I love to do, and I believe this is something I would enjoy. I do hope however that this summer I can work some part time hours, or maybe have Fridays off. I don't know how that works, but I sure hope it will all work out for me.
For now I will just focus on what I need to do to get through the studies, I need to trust the process will all fall into place!!!
Of course a mother wants her children to be completely healthy. Our health is so important! If everyone is just healthy, this mommy is happy! This year has been a huge challenge in that area. First my 15 year old daughter that was diagnosed with Crohns Disease and that was a difficult thing to comprehend. But, since then I believe she has been healed and is doing wonderful!! She is also stronger as well, and is so close to God. She really counts on Him, and knows He has great plans to prosper her with a bright future!!
This fall, my son was diagnosed with SVT (Super Vantricular, Tachycardia) a heart condition where the heart has extra circuits that can make the heart go up to 250 beats per minute. That's Fast! He had surgery a couple months ago but as time has gone on apparently the surgery was not a total success. Our doctor here has now referred us to the Mayo Clinic in Mn. One of the best heart centers around. We are excited to meet with the doctors there. I feel very hopeful that they will be able to correct this problem. For now he is on heart medication to regulate his heart. Mean while it breaks my heart to see that my children have had to go through such trials. We have all learned we need to lean on God even more and come together as a family. Right now we are waiting for that referral to come. I really hope we hear something this week. Mean while Bailey is feeling great, working as security, and loving snow boarding!! He is such a great kid.
I feel so very blessed with these three great kids. I could not ask for any better! Thank you Lord!! Please watch over them and keep them safe always and forever! Help me to be a strong mother, wife and friend to every one. Help me to be strong Lord when I feel so weak! Amen
A couple of weeks ago I decided to take a leap to become a Real Estate Broker Associate. Those close to me know this is definitely something I have talked about and pondered on for several years now. Even my hair Stylist knows and she would always ask me if I had decided to go for it yet. When praying about different job options, this was always the first thought in my mind. What has kept me from it before was fear of not being able to do it, and also using money to take all the classes and tests. Fear of failure honestly has not been a part of my vocabulary, so that is a hard one to admit. Those that know me, know that when I set my mind to something I go for it! I signed up for the classes and decided to go for it. I am about half way through my on line courses and let me tell you this is hard hard hard stuff. Little did I know there are so many laws to memorize. I was terribly frustrated on the chapter a few nights ago that taught me all about surveying in one chapter crammed with information that made no sense to me what so ever. But pushed through it even when I was about to burn the book, I finally passed that chapter test. This is probably the hardest thing career wise that I have decided to tackle, and lets just say it has been a good 20 years since I have had to study for anything. I can't wait to finish this on line and be in class for 2 weeks to go over it all again with a teacher!! After that I will pass his class, then 2 state exams. Every day I open my book it is a new adventure and a pretty huge challenge and commitment!!
I love this quote: It is so true!! If you are going to do something. Just do it!