Monday, July 14, 2014

The Other Side Of The Curtain-----Of Dance

If you have not been a regular reader of my blog you would not know that for 23 years I was a dancer and for 12 years I owned my own dance business and taught many classes to many ages of children. Dance has always been my life. The past 3 years now my studio has been closed and I miss it greatly. My older daughter Amanda grew up in my studio and dance from the time she was almost 2. Gracie was able to dance for one year with me.

This summer I put Grace into a summer dance camp in a nearing town. "Hip Hop camp".  So for a week now I have been on "other side of the window".  A friend I know was there with her daughter too and said "see being on this side isn't so bad". I said "no i would rather be teaching this class".   I found myself judging the teaching at first because the class for a camp is not what I expected it to be. It was mixed with K-3rd Grade. Big age difference. The dance and style was also 3rd grade level dance class. They all come in and are just shown the entire dance routine and now work on it. I could see Grace was overwhelmed, but she pushed through.  I just wondered where are the ribbon sticks, music props, and creative movement that 5 years olds love so much? Well I guess that is not what this camp is. It made me realize what a great teacher and great curriculum I had for my little ones of this age and no wonder why those classes for me were full!

In the mean time, Gracie keeps pushing through and really starts catching on to this pretty hard and fast routine!! By day 3 she was having fun. Got a t-shirt and will be dancing on stage at the down town summer festival. To see her smiling and having fun melted my heart. She did awesome and by the end of the week had a fun time and was proud she learned "hip hop"

Summer & update on Amanda

Summer seems to be flying by so fast. Course for us it really did not start up till July. Most of April May and June were spent in Dr offices. This week I take Amanda for her first check up since her diagnoses and since they have started her on the 6MP drug for Crohns.  So I am preparing for another long road trip this week. Today she has to get some blood drawn because it has been 2 weeks since she started that drug and they need to see how her body is responding to it all. The day can not come soon enough to get her off this steroid. It really seems to mess with her moods and she seems to get no sleep at night because it keeps her up. She is on 4 different things right now, my cabinet looks like I am a pharmacist.  I am making an apt to meet with someone in our area that is highly been recommended for advice on diet and vitamin health. I can't wait to meet with her. This will all be a learn as we go kind of thing. Hopefully her apt all goes well and blood work looks great. 

This weekend took the kids to a fun little place they had been to when little. Gracie really enjoyed it and especially seeing the baby bears. Summer is going too fast and I just want to get the kids out and enjoy some things before school starts again!! 

Monday, July 7, 2014

How To Reprogram Your Mind (for Positive Thinking)

I have been loving following Brendon Burchard-Live. Love. Matter.

I especially love his you tube post on Positive thinking and reprograming your mind to do so.

The highest achievers in the world at one point said to themselves, "you know what, I need to discipline my mind to support me. Even when my mind comes up with automatic thoughts, I want those to be positive, buoyant, confident and strong, something that leads me to healthy decisions for my life-not just those that protect me or freak me out."

After watching this video I have decided to try the challenge he puts out there for the next 30 days. I could use a good dose of getting my mind on track and thinking more positive thoughts. It makes sense that when we think negative we are conditioning our mind to do just that. But if we condition our minds to REDIRECT those negative thoughts into positive ones our whole life experience will sure be more peaceful.  I encourage anyone to watch the video and tell me what your thoughts are..

4th of July

 This fourth of July was filled with carnivals, parades, and great fireworks displays.  I hope you all had a great holiday weekend!! Happy Birthday America!!

Tradition has it we must go on the scrambler!

my kids and their friends that put on a great fireworks display!! :-))

18 already?

How do kids grow up so fast? It seems like yesterday this little/bit guy was just a toddler building forts and all kinds of contraptions all around the house, full of energy and a free spirit. Now what feels like over night he is a young man that I am so very proud of. He loves his family, a hard worker, thoughtful and kind. Yep that is my teenage son. Some people say that the teen years are terrible for them. I can say that with our two teens it has been very enjoyable as they are growing up. Very proud mommy! Bailey's party was a total surprise. I was working on it for a month or so and was sure hoping no one would spill the beans.  I was able to get his best friend that lives out of town to also come along with a few more of his closest buddies and a lot of our family.  The weekend was a hit and a total surprise!! :-)

He loves Buffalo Wild one stop we had to make!! Loaded him up on wings!! 

Wednesday, July 2, 2014

Update On my Daughter

Just a few days ago Amanda started the 6MP drug for Crohns.  I say that with mixed feelings. Lets just say the warnings on many things can scare the crap out of you. She however was so excited to get started on it. I have just been praying that it makes her feel better. This drug will take about 6-8 weeks before you see full results from it. By then she will be off the steroid and close to being done with the other 2.  My cabinet now looks officially like I am a pharmacist!  The past 2 days I am happy to report that she is feeling much better. That makes me feel good. The last thing as a parent you want, is to see your child in a huge amount of pain.

I know this will be a learning thing..and we learn as we go. ..for now Grateful for a great day today !!

So live it !!

Friday, June 27, 2014

Dealing with the reality of change-From a Mothers point of view

This week has been a huge amount of different emotions. My heart aches for my daughter and her having to deal with all of this at the young age of 15. It doesn't seem fare. Yet what in life is right. It is a reminder that we are not in control of really anything in this life. As a very protective mother, this one is hard for me. I want to take away the Crohn's, I want it to not exist, I want to control it and yet I can't. I am at the Mercy of God and Doctors. There are days I am all over it and start reading and educating myself, and days this week that i experienced total shut down and did not want to talk to one person. I was on information over load from talking to doctors and reading to try and understand this disease that makes no sense to me!! The one thing i can control is educating myself and learning more about what helps this disease go into remission. And trust me I am all over all of that!!! 

On a good note, I am reading that they are making some good advances, I hope and I pray there is a cure for this some day soon. I try to research doctors, as I want her having the very best care. I want to be sure the medication they want her on for long term doesn't have to be so long term, because I pray she will just go into remission.  All in all, I want my daughter to feel well, to not have pain and live a normal life. Which I read that most people do. 

Now today, I feel my feet are back under me again. So back onto researching mode again. Nutrition is key and finding the right supplements and vitamins are crucial. I am getting a book called the "makers diet" this week. I hope to find some good nutrition ideas. I want to find my daughter a "buddy" someone to talk to that is dealing with Crohn's as well. I think that will be important for her. 

I do not know why God allowed this, but I DO know and believe that GOD will put all this to good. I believe once we get a handle on all this, that Amanda can live a normal life. We will learn as we go and nutrition  is going to be key.  

All mothers out there that see their children hurt or feel sick know what I am feeling. Unless you have walked in these shoes, you don't know. I ask for your prayers for us. 

Sunday, June 22, 2014

Answers are Hard to hear when they come with a diagnoses like this....

The past couple of months our oldest daughter has struggled with stomach issues. We have had several tests run, that lead to just more and more tests. But never getting any solid answers and just frustration. This past week while I was at work.  I got a call saying they wanted to admit her (6 hours away) into Sandfords Children's Hospitol to do further testing, much more invasive kinds of test to accually go in and see what is going on. I needed to have her there by midnight in order to get the tests scheduled and going for the next couple of days. So, I dropped everything and Amanda and I headed down the road. Thankfully, this lead us to a great Dr,  a specialist that was a Pediatric Gastroenteroligist.

She had an MRI the very next day and then the following day an endoscope and colonoscopy. Talk about being a trooper. She was so strong and positive through all these tests! I am so proud of her!

Through these tests the diagnosis is Crohn's Disease.  This was something we had talked to previous doctors about so we were a little familiar with it. Something we had hoped would not be the case. Answers are good, but they are very hard to hear when you are dealing with the life change for your sweet daughter!! My heart at this moment just heard the word and not all the facts. This all takes time to soak in.  Being strong for my daughter became most important, but inside I was falling apart and felt alone in a foreign land!!

What is Crohn's Disease?
Crohn's disease is an inflammation of the intestines (bowel).  It can affect the part of the small intestine, the colon, or like my daughter it is also found in her esophogus.  Crohn's causes swelling, redess, and even sores (ulcers) in the intestines. The ulcers can make a hole in the wall of the intestine, which can cause life threatening infection and bleeding. Both the swelling and scar tissue from the sores can block the passage of food. This is why she lost 10 lbs in 2 months.

How does this occur?
The cause is unknown. It is believed to the an autoimmune problem. This means that the body's defenses against infection are attacking your own tissue, but this has not been proven.

So how will they treat her?
Well for now she is on a powerful steroid, and a couple other meds to help calm things down and get her pain free. For long term though she will be put on a medicine for the Crohn's and from my understanding, help control it or heal some of the ulcerations. Medical science has no cure. But i know God is more powerful!!!  I will be making alot of adjustments to her diet. So much has to do with what you eat that can cause a "flare up".  I have so much to learn and this is just the beginning!

My heart?
Well my heart breaks for my daughter. She has been so healthy her whole entire life. Only on antibiotics maybe 2 or 3 times in her life. She is only 15. I wish she did not have to deal with this, but we will do all we can to educate ourselves and get the very best for her!! I have alot of emotions and one recently was asking God WHY!!   But, here we are. We learn, we adjust things, educated our selves, get in contact with others who have this disease. Always going to be learning what works or doesn't work for her. She will have a normal life, can have children, and I pray for her to go into remission once day soon!!  I love her more than life!!

As Amanda said "We came and We Conquered"

Wednesday, May 21, 2014

Preschool Graduation

I can not express enough how amazing the past 2 years have been for our little Gracie. We were so blessed with such a fantastic teacher who instilled such a passion for reading into her. Grace is reading, writing on her own, and doing such amazing things. Her teacher has been a huge blessing and we are forever grateful for her. A teacher influences a child's attitude for learning and I am thrilled that Grace absolutly loves school, and loves her teacher and I know the feeling is mutual! Today was hard to say goodbye for both of them!! brought tears to my eyes. If we could have her teach her forever we would!! But now next year On to Kindergarten, and this mommy is not ready for that! 

 We are so proud of you Gracie!! Such a sweet, smart, loving little girl you are!!
Thank you for a Great 2 years Mrs Crim!!

Back to Blogging

Blogging was always one of my all time favorite things to do. It has been a long little "LUL" I admit in my little blogging world this past year. But I think I am ready to start writing again. Thank you all for checking in with me now and then and seeing how we are doing. It means alot to hear from you and know you are out there!

So much going on in our house right now just with the kids schedules. Track Season for Amanda just ended, Softball begins. Gracie just had her last day of Preschool and now will be moving into Kindergarten next year. Bailey just finishing up his finals of his Junior year. Can't believe he will be a Senior next year. It seems that this year is a really emotional year for me. Alot of big jumps coming up next fall with my kids. Makes me wonder where the time has gone. Some times I feel guilty too. Like have I don't enough, been enough, feeling like I wish I could go back and make more time for some of the things I feel I should have made more time for. Time just seems to go so fast. We all get so engulfed into our busy schedules, maybe even overwhelmed sometimes. Boy we need to learn to slow down and smell the roses in life. If I look around me, I have so much to be so Thankful for !

Summer begins today, although the weather here still gives us more cold. Maybe just maybe I can dedicate more time to some of the little things I love...
Tina Lynn 

Wednesday, April 23, 2014


 A Few pictures of my sweet daughters at Easter. We spent it with some of my family at my Aunts house. Grace was excited the Easter bunny came even though we were out of town!! :-)
 I love my kids so much, So proud of them all...they make my heart melt!! Bay was off with friends and I couldn't get a pic of that boy..seems rare that i can get all three to sit still for one moment to take a picture.
I hope you all had a Blessed Easter!

God Bless

Wednesday, April 16, 2014

Happy Family Day "Gotcha Day"

I can't believe how fast time goes.  Today, 5 years ago, we picked up our sweet little 8 month old daughter and we became a family of 5!! I think back to that day. How little she was, so fragile and precious, so tiny, and a little scared of all her new surroundings, sounds, and people all around her. It felt like such a long wait to hold her in my arms. But when I finally did our bond was just the same as if she grew right inside of my own flesh! She bonded to me immediately. God prepared her heart just as I asked him to do. She is so precious and it still amazes me how God orchestrated it all. She is ours, and we hers..Her forever family!!

I plan on adding more to this post later tonight or in the morning....stay posted...for more!!
I had to get it on as April 16th

Sunday, April 6, 2014

First Prom

 My sons first Prom!! Boy times have sure changed since I was younger!! Now it is a huge deal to go to Prom with a big group and seems to be a must do to have a limo too.. I love to see these kids having so much fun, an oh boy do they drop the $$ on this one night of fun! But still great memories of the good old high school years are all worth it!

His best buddies!! can't wait to see where these 3 go in life as they grow up!!

I am so proud of my Son and what a great young man that he has become. He is so kind and thoughtful of others and has such great qualities about him that I love so much! Even though he is 6 foot tall, he is still my biggest hugger of all. Always has a hug for his mom!! I love that! 
Luv you Bay!

Monday, March 3, 2014

Trusting God can transform your life...

I love when I come across a great read and I have to share it. This is always a great reminder to us all. It is easy to start living life and doing it all ourselves..I need to practice leaning on God more! 

How Trusting God Can Transform Your Life

by Joyce Meyer
For a long time, there was so much turmoil in my life. It really saddens me to think about all the years I wasted living this way. I was a Christian and went to church, but I spent a lot of time being upset about things I couldn’t do anything about, experienced feelings of guilt and condemnation much of the time, had no peace and just didn’t enjoy life.
Thankfully, I’ve had a radical transformation. I’ve developed the habit of trusting God, and now life is really worth living.

What It Means to Trust God

Trusting God is simply believing that He loves you, He’s good, He has the power to help you, He wants to help you, and He will help you. Christians are called believers, but many times, we are more like unbelieving believers. We trust our friends, the bank, the stock market or the government more than we trust God and His Word.
In John 15:5, Jesus says that apart from Him, we can do nothing. We need to lean on Him for help with everything in our lives. Sadly, a lot of people go to church, hear what they should do and then go home and try to do it on their own. They usually end up desperately telling God how hard they’re trying to do what they need to do, and they’re leaving Him out!
God wants us to put Him first in our lives. He wants us to put our confidence and trust in Him, all the time, in everything.

Learning to Trust God, Not Myself

I used to have a habit of trusting myself. I formed this habit through years of trusting people, getting hurt and finding out I couldn’t trust them. This caused me to believe, If you want something done right, you’ve got to do it yourself. If you don’t ask anybody for anything or open your heart to them, they can’t hurt you. But this mindset just kept me from trusting God. It was a bad habit I had to break.
Proverbs 3:5,6 says, Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths (NKJV). When you accept Jesus Christ as your Savior, the Spirit of God comes to live inside you. This is one of the greatest blessings of salvation: You don’t have to go through someone else to get to God. He dwells in your heart and you can learn to hear His voice.
The best way to hear from God and know how He wants you to live is to know what the Bible, His Word, says. God’s Word gives us wisdom. And as we study the Bible, our mind is renewed (see Romans 12:2), so we no longer just think the way the world thinks – we can think the way God thinks!

The Good Habit That Really Makes the Difference

We have to habitually study the Word to really have confidence in God and know we can hear Him. The Bible is food for our spirit. As we spend time reading and meditating on Scripture, we develop a strong spirit. Then we can hear God speaking to our heart – where He dwells in us – and make decisions based upon what He’s leading us to do, not just what we may think, feel or want.
When you go beyond what you want, what you think and what you feel and do what the Word and the Spirit of God tell you to do, you are able to develop good habits and break bad ones. You come to a place where the blessings of God – His righteousness, peace and joy – overflow in your life.
Life is simple and peaceful when we come to God like little children and say, “God, I don’t want to live on my own. I want to trust You. When I don’t know what to do, I’ll trust You. When I don’t understand why, I’ll trust You. I’ll do my part with Your help, and when I’m done, I’ll trust You to do the rest.”

Saturday, February 22, 2014

Time with My Gramps

It's always so great to spend time with my grandparents. My grandpa has struggled with Emphysema for years, but last summer also got hit with west Nile virus. This took him down and he almost lost his life. In fact many many months we thought he was not going to make it. This was in August of last summer. But here he is still fighting strong and still the will to live is stronger than the virus or emphysema in his body.  I treasure each visit, each conversation, and every hug with him as if it could be the last one. I just love to hear his stories about life, and every single time we always hear one that we have never heard before!! He is a fighter and a hard worker. Still is a contractor who builds homes and sells them. He has one he is working on now. I think his work gives him purpose too. Yes he works and he is 94 years of age. Pretty amazing right? I know I have written about him before, but it had been a while since I have had an update!! 

Always tell your loved ones how you feel, listen to their stories about life...Grandparents especially have so much life experience and we can learn a lot from them. So take time always..just take time..

Bay's Ski Trip!!

For the second year in a row Bailey has had the opportunity to go on a fun ski trip with his buddy and his family . This year His buddy's dad took them all on a total boys trip!! This year was Steamboat Springs Colorado!! He has become a very good snow boarder. This year bought himself a go pro and has a ton of fun making fun video's of his jumps. As a mom makes me a bit nervous when i see that he was going 46mph down the hill!! ugg..But I am so thankful for this family that always includes him in the fun !! Love my son and the great little man he becoming. Time goes fast and I am realizing that he only has another year at home before he graduates from High school. God time goes too fast!! 

His view from the condo! Breath taking!!
And here is the whole crew!!