Friday, May 9, 2008

New Thoughts

Terry with his parents Bill and Janice.

Lately my heart has been sooper heavy with new feelings and thoughts. I have had a much higher level of concern for our babies birth mother. The other night I watched a movie called Juno (not a movie I recommend). It was about a very young girl that planned to give her baby up for adoption. The end of the show she gave birth, she did not want to see her baby at all. She just layed in the hospital bed and sobbed. The next day.. I was watching "A baby story" , and it showed a woman giving birth, the baby was layed on the womans belly, and her and her husband were filled with joy. Both these shows brought me into another level of concern for our baby and the birth mother. I know somewhere on the other side of the world there is a woman who is the birth mother of our child who is about to give birth probebly sometime in june or july. She is probebly in some kind of turmoil right now knowing that she will give up her new born baby. The grief she must feel is unimaginable to me. Also on the other hand there is our child...born on the other side of the world who will not be held by a mommy and daddy for many months after it's birth. This makes me sooo sad. When we had our children, it was the most joyous time in life. We would both cry with tears of Gratefullness to God. With our sweet little angel who will be born in Korea, this baby will not be in the arms of one that will love him/her like we will until we meet later..this is very hard for me to think about,...but untill then I have to trust that God will hold our baby right away, I have to trust that He will provide everything that our baby will need and more until we can. Adoption is a truely amazing experience! God's Great Plan!

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