My Gramps

My Gramps has not been feeling well for a while now. He has struggled with Emphysema for many years. But he never really let that stop him from working as a contractor and doing the things he wanted to do. He just celebrated his 90th birthday and just a few weeks ago finished a few more homes to be sold. Yeah he is witty, smart, strong willed and still working Anyway the past few months he has really struggled with bronchitis infections and his breathing of course gets affected. He has had to have blood transfusions, and they don't really know why his body won't keep producing enough blood. Sad to say, he is just not doing very well, and not recovering or popping back like he has in the past. I still pray for healing on him, but I know that God knows the plan for him. Seeing him in pain and struggling is heart breaking!!

I drove home this week to spend time sitting with him and talking to him. and my time with him was priceless. I am so glad that I went to see him. My grandpa is so special to me. My mom gave birth to be at the age of 17, so a very young mother I had my grandparents that helped with me a lot to raise me. I can say that my grandpa is the one male in my life who has always been here for me. I cherish many many memories! When I was little our thing was to always sit at the kitchen table at night and have chocolate pudding. The other night him and I sat at the table and had chocolate ice cream. Felt the same and we talked about when I was little.

Before I had to go I had this huge weight on me...(that was God). I needed to ask him if he was right with God.  Finally I got a few minutes alone with him and I had to ask. I am happy to know he is :-))
Later when I left my home town and said bye to gramps...I said I"ll see you in a couple weeks when I come back..I layed my head on him crying while telling him good bye ...in my heart not knowing if I would see him again or not.  I told him that I love him , he told me he loves me too kid!  I said keep fighting gramps, but I know you are tired too. He said "be careful of the deer when driving..and you go live your life ok, go do the things you want to do". He told me earlier that 90 years goes way too fast, he still had things to do. I cried my eyes out leaving . Feeling I had so much more Id wanted to tell him, or talk to him about. On the ride home I shed many many tears too. I was all alone, but maybe that was a good thing. My heart breaks right now for him. I can not imagine him not here. Non of us can. ..I love you Gramps!

 this was last summer..

 Gramps is my buddy !!